I've been off work for a year and a half since having my baby, and although I'm very eager to get that part of my brain back, and my sense of independence, I am scared shitless of working again!
How do I mentally prepare for this? I feel like such a huge space queen now. (I've always been spacey, but it's much worse since having the baby; except for when it comes to the baby); I barely have the focus to write a cover letter, let alone the time. I've just started looking for work again and I'm torn- I feel so guilty and miss the baby already, yet I feel if I don't return to my career soon, my skills will be become obsolete (and so faded it won't matter anyway)!
How does a person who values her independence, yet doesn't want someone else raising her baby, find a balance? I'm torn!—Torn