Hey, drunk waitress. yeah, you. Are you so boring that you can't do anything else but drink and party? It's your night off, and you're at the fuckin bar? Your shift is over and you're at the fuckin bar? You're so desperate you need to sit your drunk ass and get attention from all the drunk creeps you call friends at the fuckin bar?? You're a classic case of desperation. Ever notice how most people move on?
Yeah yeah, others do it too - some more than you. But you're 30 something. Stop pretending and do something with your talents before you turn 40 and blame everyone else for your problems.
Denial - it might be sweet now, but turns sour over time.
Life is amazing. MAKE IT SO.