Posted
on Fri, Sep 21, 2012 at 3:40 PM
It's been months, you're dating someone else, and so am I. My heart still aches when I think of you. I'm not sure if it's because of the things we went through, (the regrets we will always have). You treated me badly (we just were so hard on each other because of what we went through), and there should be no reason for me to feel like this—but when you told me you wanted to work things out with us the other week... god, all I wanted to do was show up on your doorstep. I miss the sex, I miss your stupid laugh and I miss your gap tooth grin, I miss how prideful I was to be around you, to be with you, how content I was with life. You were my favourite person, and I don't think I will ever stop missing you. I wish things were not so complicated. The guy I am dating now treats me like a goddess... literally, to the point I feel like I don't deserve him. I want to want him, I want to be happy but life's not that easy. He deserves so much better but he refuses. My heart and my mind are with you for all of your faults you are so perfect to me. All I want to do is let you go... —My Head and My Heart are Always at Battle