Q I am a 26-year-old European man. I have been for four years in a monogamous relationship with my girlfriend. Recently she cheated on me. When she told me what she did, I felt a very strong pain, even stronger than I expected. After a few days of pain, however, I found that the sexual attraction for my girlfriend, instead of decreasing, increased after her adventure. I am now having a cuckold fantasy. I would like that she tell me everything she did, without sparing any detail, while we have sex, or that we try to play an actual cuckold game where she has sex with someone else in front of me while I give her instructions and tell her exactly what to do.
My problem is that I am not sure what her reaction would be if I ask her to play out these fantasies. She feels very guilty and witnessed my pain when she told me she cheated. I fear that talking to her about these fantasies would scare her. I also fear that, as she is feeling guilty, she would say yes, but without really wanting to do this. I also don't want her to think I liked what she did when she cheated on me. I did not like it, but I would like to relive it in a playful way, in which I have complete control. How do you think I should approach this talk? Which reactions should I expect? How can I make sure that she is really into this if she says yes? —Feeling Obsessed Replicating Treason & Dominating Adulterer
A Cuckolding, like all fetishes and/or fantasies, is unique to the person and adaptable within particular relationships. But it's erotic humiliation—of the person being cheated on—that distinguishes cuckolding from hot wifing/husbanding or swinging. The cuck's partner, AKA "the cheater," is in control, and the cuck gets off on having his nose rubbed in the evidence of his partner's cheating. (That's the theory; I've gotten lots of letters from people who are married to controlling cucks.)
Zooming out: Your reaction to learning you'd been cheated on—pain and shock, quickly followed by increased feelings of lust for your girlfriend—is not uncommon. It's less common for the cheatee to eroticize the betrayal; a couple may reconnect sexually in the wake of an affair, but rarely does a couple wind up incorporating eroticized infidelity into their sexual repertoire. But in your fantasy, FORTDA, you would be calling the shots, giving instructions and telling your girlfriend what to do. That's definitely not a cuckold fantasy, FORTDA, and it may be a revenge fantasy.
But a cheating crisis presents a good opportunity for both parties to be honest with each other about what they want going forward. And that's what you should do, FORTDA: Be completely honest. First, make sure your fantasy is an authentic impulse—it's a genuine turn-on, unearthed by this revelation, not an excuse to punish your girlfriend for cheating. Make sure this isn't a revenge fantasy. If it's a genuine turn-on, share everything: This surprising new turn-on, your own confusion and your concerns (you don't want her to agree to do it out of guilt, it's not a license to cheat).
She might freak out. She might be into it. She might freak out and then later be into it. You can figure out the parametres later, if you decide to explore this at all, but it starts with a conversation. Good luck.
Q I write you from Italy, where I follow you through Internazionale. I am a guy in his 30s sexually paralyzed with his girlfriend. We are together four years, and during the last year sex has gradually faded away, leaving me alone with my skillful hand (left one). The sexual paralysis is beginning to affect our behaviours. We don't accept each other anymore. Verbal communication is poor. However, we are exceptional friends. I don't believe in monogamy, but my girlfriend could never tolerate betrayal. What the fuck to do? —Literally Outta Order Penis
A Sometimes a relationship dies but we insist on propping the body up in a corner, LOOP, and pretending it's still alive. We do this because even if the relationship is dead, our partner isn't. And we can't declare the thing dead—we can't break the fuck up already—without hurting someone we used to have romantic feelings for and may still very much like as a person. So we tiptoe around the decomposing corpse until the stench can't be ignored any longer. This relationship is dead, LOOP. End the relationship and do your best to salvage the exceptional friendship.
Q English is not my mother tongue. I'm bisexual, age 26. Like many bi girls I ended up with guys. I had a long, serious relationship with a man when I was young and only started exploring my sexuality after I left him. Then I fell in love with a girl. She's a lesbian, and after a long and hard-fought chase, I finally got her. It's been two months, I came out to my parents (whom I live with), and they did not exactly welcome the news. But all would seem to be going well: I love a girl, she loves me, my parents let us be. Problem is, I want cock. I want a man to grab me and have sex with me. I've had the chance to do it and didn't, because I wanted to respect the exclusivity of my relationship. My girlfriend knows about my doubts but says they are part of "questioning my non-heterosexuality." I don't want to leave her, because she's my princess and my goddess. But I worry about bad judgment and impulses. Where do I go from here? —Wanting A Dick
A Those aren't doubts, WAD. They're desires. You know what you want: You want your girlfriend, you want cock, you want a man to grab you, and you want to continue questioning—and shaping and defining—your non-heterosexuality. The problem, WAD, isn't that you don't know what you want, it's that you don't know how to fuse all these wants into a coherent identity. There are plenty of options you and your girlfriend can explore—together or separately. Get a fake cock and use it together. If that doesn't slake your hunger for cock, maybe your girlfriend would be up for a threesome. Discuss whether an open relationship is a possibility down the road.
That said, WAD, you and Princess Goddess have only been together two months. If you're wrecked over your need for cock at this early stage, maybe sexual exclusivity isn't the right choice for you.